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八八九九了

今天的發現：婚紗有點兒鬆動，裙褂更是太寬了！

IT IS SEPTEMBER ALREADY!!!! Ahhhh

I am emotionally messed up. Bear with me, guys.

YES

So.. when I was planning and doing research for my wedding, the idea of eco-friendly tableware, utnesils and napkins came across my mind. It then stays there.. not going anywhere..

I hate to use (guest count x 2) number of plastic/paper plates and (guest count) number of oil-base plastic forks. Paper.. is still fine, but plastic.. it is real BAD.

However, in our current $$ situation, going green seems to be a luxury.

跟媽的一場辯論/爭吵，再次回憶起當年那人對我的評語：自以為是。

自以為是，一聽就是一個負面評價。當年的我，一聽了這個評價就氣上心頭，拂抽離場，未有好好去反省。

今天的我跟當年不同了。不同的不是我不再自以為是，而是不再氣忿。

今天的我跟當年不同的是︰我接受我是自以為是的人。

我自以為是，在於我堅持我的價值觀和理想。有時別人會不認同我的價值觀或理想。當別人不認同，但我認為對時，我堅持，就被認為自以為是。

事實上，我為我自以為是的性格而自豪。

我不是不會改變立場，而是要改變我的立場，必須要把我說服。強權哭叫要脅也不成﹐更會引致反效果。

這一番言論，很是反映我自以為是的性格吧！

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⁷Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. ⁸Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love. ⁹This is how God showed his love among us: He sent his one and only Son^[b] into the world that we might live through him. ¹⁰This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for^[c] our sins. ¹¹Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another. ¹²No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us.

¹³We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit. ¹⁴And we have seen and testify that the Father has sent his Son to be the Savior of the world. ¹⁵If anyone acknowledges that Jesus is the Son of God, God lives in him and he in God. ¹⁶And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.
God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. ¹⁷In this way, love is made complete among us so that we will have confidence on the day of judgment, because in this world we are like him. ¹⁸There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

¹⁹We love because he first loved us. ²⁰If anyone says, “I love God,” yet hates his brother, he is a liar. For anyone who does not love his brother, whom he has seen, cannot love God, whom he has not seen. ²¹And he has given us this command: Whoever loves God must also love his brother.

1 John 4:7-21 (NIV)

³⁶“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” ³⁷Jesus replied: ” ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’^{[a] 38}This is the first and greatest commandment. ³⁹And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’^{[b] 40}All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”

Matthew 22:36-40 (NIV)

Finally have the mood to write down some thoughts from the PyCon trip.

The python conference was in Chicago. It was the first time I went to Chicago. It was also the first time I saw snow in person for my life. I know it is silly, when snow-related sports are so popular around here, I just haven’t seen snow before.
Walk around the Chicago city for a little bit. The city was nice. I like it. I would like to come back sometime and take a good look at the city. This trip was a nice introduction. Thanks to Brian.

Go back to the conference. It was also the first time I went to a geek conference. Yep, there were whole bunch of geeks. This three-day conference made me think a lot. On the first day of the conference, I heard many talks but most of the time I had no idea what those speakers were talking about. I realized that how little I know. This realization made me feel really bad. I felt so dumb. From there, I know I need to learn more. The conference gave me some ideas on the areas that I should explore.

On the second day of the conference, I heard a talk about some guys were developing a machine for people who have speaking problem. Similar machines are currenlty sold in the market for 6K+ US dollars which is unaffordable for most of those in need. These guys are trying to develop one with 1/10 of that price so people can actually afford it. I was touched by these guys. For a long time I have been thinking how can I make good use of my gifts. I suddenly got some clue. I found my goal - gain more knowledge and skills such that one day I can use them to help people. I know, it is non-specific. I don’t set specific goal for life except one - to love.

In conclusion, I need to learn. I need to work hard. I told myself, next year when I go to the conference again (if there’s the chance), I will be different.

Same time next year, I will be different.

There is a goal.

Thanks to PyCon.

Keep myself reminded.

Thank God. Thank God. Thank God.

You love me so much. You have perfect plan for me. I thank you, Lord. I love you, Lord.

Thanks for letting me to put the important information in the flash drive.
Thanks for letting me losing the flash drive containing the important information.
I know you let this happen, for the sake of me.
You let me evaluate my carelessness.
You let me find ways to improve.
You let me commit to change.
I know you love me. You let this happen for my own sake.
Thank God.

Thank God. You are the kindest father in the universe.
You let me trip. You let me learn. But you have never left.
At the perfect time when your plan for me is fulfilled, you reward me.
You reward me with my lost flash drive.
You reward me with relieve.
You reward me with peace.
You let my flash drive appear again.

Everything is in your plan.
I praise you, Lord.