itherese Leung’s blog

except God’s words.

I knew that, but I am still sad.

When Eric was upset about losing his beloved car from the accident, I said to him that, no material lasts forever.

I had a set of Thermos Nissan Cook n’ Carry Cooking System (a.k.a. 真空煲). Strickly speaking, it belonged to Eric, since it was a gift I got him for Christmas/our first dating anniversary. But I have been the one using it. The gift was actually the soups that I was going to make with it rather than the pot set itself. Anyway, we had it.

I loved the pots. I made soups with it. The inner stainless steel pot was made with very good stainless steel. It was sturdy and smooth. Although I used it quite often, it still looked bright and didn’t show any hint of aging. It did not rust a bit. The outer pot (the insulating container) was equally good, if not better. It kept the temperature of the soup in the inner pot so well, that it was still very hot (that I can’t hold the handle without using a damp cloth) 9 hours later. Even after three years of frequent use.

It was my favorite pot. I promised myself to make soups often for Eric because he loves homemade soups. I promised myself to be a good wife.

Though, nothing lasts forever. This evening I burned the inner pot accidentally with nothing inside while I intended to boil another pot of water for the meat, for the soup. I didn’t realize the mistake until I saw black smoke came from the pot. Fortunately (thank God), Eric and I were in the kitchen and we managed to turn off the gas before anything worse could happen. However, the pot is gone.

It was just a pot, I know. But I am still sad. It was my favorite pot. It was the pot for my soups. It was a channel for my love for my husband. Not to mention a replacement is going to be costly.

“No material lasts forever”. Guess this is not very comforting, though it is true. I feel that now. Thank God.

Have a lot of wants lately…

I want to write more sophisticated programs.

Having only two years of real world experience, guess there’s something I can’t rush, while I also want a balanced life.

Wish that I will advance to higher level in a not-too-long time.

One night when I was in bed, this thought came to me: If Eric suddenly has heart attack, or can’t breath in the middle of the night, what should I do?

I don’t know what I should do. He is right next to me but I won’t know how to help.

Therefore, I decided to learn CPR.

One of the major differences between married and pre-married life for me is the concerns for my mate. I did concern about Eric before the vow, but it was different. I feel the difference.

This guy who sleeps with me every night is my husband. As long as we both live, he is an non-differentiable part of me. When I think/image/plan for anything, he is part of it. When he share his plans/needs/desires/concerns, I consider every single one of them (not necessary satisfying all of them, there is the art of compromising). This is the mind set that is different than before. I knew how I *should* think, I wanted to think this way before. But I no longer ‘know’ or ‘want’ anymore, I do now.

I feel so real.

Besides learning CPR, I decided to stay healthy, too. That way, I will have the physical ability to take care of my family and others, and minimize others’ burden.

It is almost Christmas time. It is gift-giving time.

Recently, I received a gift catalog from World Vision. In the past, I dump this kind of stuffs to the recycle bin right away. But this time, I opened and read it.

Then this picture of a little Afican boy holding a goat with smile in his face caught my eyes. I read the small column under it and learned that we can give a goat to a third world family for $75, and it can provide healthy milk, cheese and yogurt for the children and boost the family income by selling extra milk products. Add two chicken for $25 that provide lasting supply of meat and eggs for healthy diet and income.

That is for $100.

I would not say $100 is a small amount of money, but I do waste $100 on something meaningless easily.

I read on..

I found that there are so people in real poverty and need all over the world. Something that does not matter to us much can be huge to many others.

It’s time to share.

To read more about ways of giving, visit www.worldvision.org