We went to a wedding yesterday. The celemony was held inside a church, with a pastor be the officiant. I admire that two persons unite in God. While we need so many things to accomplish a marriage, the presence of God is the only thing that can’t go without. This is how I think, and what I long for. A unity in God.

The wedding banquet was a traditional Chinese one. In the thanksgiving section, the bride and the groom thanked their families for the love and care and supports. I thought of my family. They love and care for me, but in a different way. I hardly feel support. I hate the relationship I have with my family. I pictured myself in the wedding. Would my mother and brother and sister happy about me finding the one that I am willing to build my future with? I don’t know. All I could thought of was their sad faces. May be I was too pessimistic, but this was whatI imagined.

I hate that. I really do.