I am so god-damn bored. Have nothing to look forward to. Work is not busy nor challenging. What am I doing?

Complaining, complaining.. I am complaining myself.

And I am clueless. How to help myself?

I know what I want, but I cannot get what I want, and there is nothing I can do about it. Do not want to think about that. Want something else maybe? Shift my focus maybe? What is that?